allendalepharm Chapter 150 Confusion
Chapter 150 Confusion
Holding the Dragon Ball Radar, Shang Yun pursued the enemy relentlessly and soon arrived at the village ravaged by Vegeta. The scene before him was horrific; the village was in ruins, corpses lay scattered everywhere, and the air reeked of blood. Shang Yun trembled with rage and roared, "Damn it, that Vegeta!"
Shang Yun was like a beast engulfed in rage, his expression one of extreme fury. His eyes were bloodshot, and his once bright pupils were now gradually turning white, as if shrouded in a mist. His hair stood on end, as if struck by a powerful electric current. Wisps of black smoke rose from the corners of his eyes, accompanied by a faint dark aura, like a demon about to burst forth, making him appear both terrifying and eerie, as if teetering on the edge of darkness, on the verge of being completely devoured by his inner demons.
Just then, a system notification sounded in Shang Yun's mind.
"Ding!"
"Friendly reminder: please control your emotions, host," 9526's mechanical voice sounded.
Shang Yun was slightly taken aback and said, "9527, it's been a long time since you've shown up."
9527 The mechanical voice sounded again.
"Friendly reminder: please control your emotions, host."
"Friendly reminder: please control your emotions, host."
"Friendly reminder: please control your emotions, host."
After calming down, Shang Yun asked in confusion, "What's wrong? 9527, why do you keep reminding me to control my emotions?"
"Friendly reminder: The host already harbors the risk of demonic possession. Although the host was in an illusion on the strange planet, it still triggered the host's latent consciousness, and the host has been fighting by relying on the power of emotions. It should be noted that the host created Zen Mind? Three-Foot Godhood to avoid being controlled by emotions, but now the host is overly dependent on emotions to enhance power. In addition, the host absorbed a large amount of pure spiritual energy on the strange planet. Because it was not obtained through self-cultivation, the absorption is slow. However, this spiritual energy transformed from Zen Meditation? Void Domain is extremely pure. Although it cannot be absorbed quickly, it can help the host suppress inner demons. However, the host still needs to be vigilant to avoid the risk of demonic possession deepening again."
Shang Yun frowned, his inner confusion surging like a tidal wave. He murmured softly, "Emotions are something humans are born with. Although I can control them, I cannot ignore them. When emotions strike, must I only suppress them to seek inner peace? I created this Zen Mind? Three-Foot Divine Light, simply to maintain my rationality when emotions are surging."
At this moment, 9527's cold, mechanical voice suddenly rang out: "Friendly reminder, host, listen carefully. Emotions themselves are neither good nor evil. What is considered good or bad is merely your long-held obsession. If you perceive it as good, it will move towards good; if you perceive it as bad, it will move towards bad. This judgment originates from the deepest thoughts in your subconscious, not from casual words spoken. If what your heart thinks contradicts what you say, you have strayed from your true self. Know that every thought and action has a cause and effect; inconsistency between heart and words is the root of disaster."
Shang Yun's eyes were filled with confusion and urgency: "Then how can I possibly know what I'm really thinking?"
The mechanical voice of 9527 answered calmly: "The Heart Sutra of Mahaprajnaparamita that you are practicing is about cultivating this very heart. You need to trace back to the source and question what your true heart is thinking. Following your true heart is the right path. Going against your true heart, though it is hard to say whether it is right or wrong, will lead you astray. The actions of the wicked are the way, and the actions of the virtuous are also the way. Although you are worried about becoming possessed by demons, it is not because of your desire to kill or your deep obsession, but because you have not followed your true heart. Your thoughts and actions contradict each other, and your actions deviate from your true heart and obsession, which is why you have fallen into this situation. For example, you did not want to hurt or kill people, but you sought pleasure in fighting, and afterwards you felt it was not right. How can you be happy when you are so conflicted?"
Shang Yun looked troubled and continued to press, "Then, in your opinion, what should I do?"
9527's voice paused briefly before continuing: "In short, I'm giving you a choice: either change your mindset and update your understanding, or strengthen your resolve and follow your understanding. You must not be fickle, or you will ultimately achieve nothing."
Shang Yun frowned, lost in deep thought. Images of fierce battles with enemies in the past kept flashing through his mind. Those battles did bring him a sense of exhilaration, but after each fight, looking at the destroyed environment around him, his heart was filled with self-blame and reluctance.
"Perhaps I've always been struggling with contradictions," Shang Yun mused to himself. "Only when you're truly in the thick of battle do you realize that there are often not many choices at all. Every decision seems correct, but in hindsight, it's full of flaws. Which one is the real me: the me of then or the me of now?"
Shang Yun was somewhat confused. He knew deep down that he abhorred the harm and destruction caused by violence, yet in a corner of his heart, he had an uncontrollable desire for the power and excitement of battle. He had been trying to suppress the violent side within him, but the more he experienced in this world full of passion and violence, the stronger his yearning for power grew in his heart.
In his previous life, he lived in a peaceful country, and his heart was filled with the pursuit of harmony and stability. But now he is in a completely different environment.
"Will the passion in my heart one day turn me into a tyrant?" Shang Yun's eyes revealed a trace of fear and worry. He didn't know how to find a balance between the two, so he could only let himself sink into this complicated emotion, trying to find a sliver of clarity in this chaotic mind.
Shang Yun stood alone in the devastated village of Namek, looking at the corpses scattered everywhere with a complex expression, his heart filled with mixed feelings.
"This is the thrilling world of Dragon Ball! On this magical Namek, everyone has unlimited potential. Why should I be content to be second best?" Shang Yun clenched his fists, his knuckles turning white from the force. "Even though I know that Goku will defeat Frieza in the end, how can I so easily accept that I am just an insignificant supporting character in this great battle?"
Shang Yun chuckled self-deprecatingly, a hint of resentment flashing in his eyes: "I know in my heart that in terms of strength, I may only be at the bottom in this world full of powerful people, but my soul is that of a descendant of the dragon, and how can that pride allow me to be just an insignificant nobody cheering from the sidelines?"
Shang Yun tilted his head slightly, gazing at the unfamiliar foreign sky, and sighed deeply. "All along, I've been forcing myself to accept this cruel reality, to play an insignificant role, but this is not what I truly want. I've completely betrayed my own heart..."
A gentle breeze stirred up dust on the ground, causing Shang Yun's clothes to flutter in the wind. His figure appeared somewhat lonely and lost in the vast expanse of heaven and earth, struggling deeply with the question of how to proceed in the future.
Shang Yun couldn't understand it; perhaps it was an unsolvable mystery. Helpless, Shang Yun silently warned himself that he could no longer rely too much on the power of his emotions.
But on Namek, surrounded by formidable enemies, facing a powerful opponent like Frieza, it seems there is no other way to contend with him except through this path.
No! There is another way!
Suddenly, Shang Yun thought of something, and his aura changed abruptly, with golden light flashing in his eyes.