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Gao Kui sat blankly on the single bed, staring at the bottles and jars on the bedside table. Was he really going to take the medicine?
Dr. Masafumi Tomiyama said that these medications can help him suppress brain activity and stabilize his mental state. They need to be taken long-term and daily. In the past, after he was discharged from the hospital, he did indeed take the medications daily as prescribed.
But he's basically recovered now. Apart from the incurable auditory hallucinations, insomnia, scattered thoughts, and racing thoughts, he's basically a normal person now.
If I'm basically normal, do I still need to take medication? Maybe, but the dosage will definitely need to be reduced depending on the situation.
In addition, as the old saying goes, every medicine has some toxicity. What if you take too much medicine and damage your brain again after it has basically recovered?
Therefore, the dosage needs to be reduced further.
Finally, the drug inhibits brain nerve activity, and he now relies entirely on the memories of his past life that occasionally pop into his mind to get by.
I've entered all the lyrics I remember into the computer, and I've also recorded the melodies while humming them, waiting to learn music theory and compose them into music in the future.
But it's not enough.
To become famous and a big star, he needs many more songs; he also needs more memories of his past life and many more songs.
Memories of past lives can suddenly pop up, and no one knows when they might pop up again. What if you take too much medicine and they stop popping up?
Therefore, the dosage still needs to be reduced further.
After three consecutive drops, it's practically the same as not needing medication anymore, Gao Kui thought his logic was very reasonable.
Having made his decision, Gao Kui withdrew his gaze, turned over, and went to sleep.
In the monitoring room of the mental hospital, Professor Guderian and his three colleagues were still busy writing their report, and none of them noticed that Gao Kui hadn't taken his medication at all that day.
Over the past two years, when he was having an episode, Gao Kui diligently took his medication every day. He hated his mental illness more than anyone else.
Over time, Professor Guderian and others stopped paying as much attention to whether Gao Kui was taking drugs as they had initially.
Chapter 3 Chu Tianjiao, the Truck Driver
The next day, Gao Kui got up early as usual and took the bus to school.
The bungalow that Dean Guderian rented for him was roughly located midway between Shilan High School and the Kassel Psychological Research Center, but because the research center was in the suburbs, Gao Kui's home was not very close to Shilan High School.
As usual, Gao Kui walked into the classroom with a relaxed demeanor. The moment he stepped in, the atmosphere in the classroom suddenly seemed to drop.
When his classmates saw Gao Kui, they didn't avoid him like the plague, but they weren't exactly enthusiastic either; they generally maintained a polite distance.
Actually, two or three years ago, when Gao Kui was discharged from the hospital and returned to school, his classmates were quite enthusiastic about him, after all, Gao Kui's appearance was outstanding.
A slender yet upright stature, handsome features that are somewhat sickly but not effeminate, and a pair of eyes and brows that bear a striking resemblance to Tony Leung, coupled with a melancholic and sorrowful aura accumulated from a long-term illness and the torment of mental illness...
She seems to have stepped out of "No Longer Human" or a gender-swapped version of Naoko from "Norwegian Wood," possessing a unique charm.
At least when he wasn't ill, Gao Kui's charm was no less than that of Chu Zihang, who topped the list of those to be punished, fulfilling everyone's fantasy of a melancholy beauty.
However, all the fantasies and beautiful expectations that everyone had about the melancholy beauty were quickly shattered when she came into contact with Gao Kui.
Gao Kui's incurable schizophrenia and recurring auditory hallucinations make him unpredictable.
One second he was like Chen Yongren in "Infernal Affairs," forcing a smile with a deep-seated melancholy.
He might suddenly fall ill at any moment, becoming as violent and manic as An Jiahe in "Don't Talk to Strangers".
Crazy beauties exist only in fantasy, and melancholic beauties can only be admired from afar, not touched. Gao Kui's classmates quickly understood this and maintained an appropriate social distance from him.
This was true in the past, and it is true now. This applies to students, and it applies to teachers as well.
Gao Kui was used to this and expressed his understanding.
During class, the teacher said, "This question is important. It hasn't been on the test for the past two years, so it will definitely be on the test this year." He then gestured and explained the question type and key points on the podium.
Gao Kui was desperately trying to remember what the teacher was saying, racking his brains to learn those knowledge points. Even after he had memorized several songs, Gao Kui did not slack off in his studies.
But his attention span can only last for five minutes at most.
No matter how hard he tried to concentrate, his thoughts would wander off to other things within a few seconds to five minutes.
A fallen leaf, a drifting petal, or even just a scent—any of these could draw Gao Kui's intensely focused attention to the other side of his heart.
I can't learn anything.
As usual, Gao Kui learned almost nothing throughout the entire day.
That's terrible, absolutely terrible.
Just as school was about to end, a cumulonimbus cloud suddenly flew in from the horizon, and torrential rain, accompanied by thunder and raging winds, poured down.
That's how coastal cities are; the rain can start anytime.
Students either rushed into the downpour with umbrellas or were picked up by private cars, and most classrooms were quickly emptied, like a pool table that had been cleared out in one go.
Having no family, no relatives, and not even an umbrella, Gao Kui naturally became one of the billiard balls that had not yet been pocketed.
The other one is Chu Zihang.
"Why have you been glancing at me all day? Not only have you been glancing at me, but you're also staying in the classroom with me now."
"Your family is so rich, all you have to do is call them, and they'll send a car to pick you up and take you home very quickly."
Gao Kui, who was lying on his desk waiting for the rain to stop, suddenly looked up and looked suspiciously at Chu Zihang, who was still sneaking glances at him.
It's strange that Chu Zihang seems to have been secretly spying on him all day.
Chu Zihang was the only one in the class whose eyes showed only pity, not caution or fear, and their relationship was usually quite good.
They are more than classmates; they are friends.
Perhaps fearing to upset the sensitive feelings of the mentally ill patient, Chu Zihang quickly averted his gaze, hurriedly lowered his head, and after thinking for a moment, asked, "I have something I want to ask you..."
This might be offensive, but it's okay if you don't want to answer..."
"Bro, since you've put it that way, then I only have this one option left, right?"
In movies and TV shows, the phrase "whether it's appropriate to say something or not" is always followed by "feel free to say it."
Gao Kui's tone was light and joking, showing no sign that he was a patient who had been tormented by mental illness for four years, but his melancholy temperament remained.
"I'm sorry, I really didn't mean to force you..."
"understand."
Gao Kui gave an OK sign: "Ask away. I won't answer questions that are inconvenient to answer. If you offend me, I'll punch you."
Chu Zihang felt a little less guilty, knowing that Gao Kui might suddenly punch him.
It's alright, he's tough.
"Is the psychological research center where you usually see a doctor called Kassel?"
As soon as he asked the question, Chu Zihang was prepared to take a punch.
"Yes what's the matter?"
"The director's name is Guderian, right? Is there a half-rotten World Tree symbol in the research center? Do the hospital staff frequently fly to Chicago, USA?"
Chu Zihang asked three questions in a row.
"How did you know?" Gao Kui asked in surprise.
Many of the research center’s equipment and facilities do indeed bear the symbol of a half-rotten World Tree, and Professor Guderian does indeed frequently fly to Chicago, USA.
According to Gao Kui, Dean Guderian also holds a professorship at a university in Chicago, USA, or perhaps being a university professor is Dean Guderian's main profession, a situation that is common both domestically and internationally.
But how did Chu Zihang know that?
It really was that Kassel?
Receiving a positive reply from Gao Kui, Chu Zihang was equally surprised. To be precise, it was more of an understanding that came after his suspicions had been confirmed.
"After graduating from high school, I plan to study abroad. The university where Dean Guderian works is very likely the university I want to go to."
If it's convenient, I'd like you to introduce me to Dean Guderian..."
Chu Zihang concealed part of the truth when he gave his answer.
After descending from the overpass, he relentlessly pursued Odin and the truth behind everything. After four years of tireless effort, Chu Zihang finally found the source: Kassel College in Chicago, USA.
Based on the information disclosed on the school's official website, Chu Zihang deduced that this school was very likely the one that cultivated such special individuals as him.
The only problem was that the school emblem of the Kassel school looked very familiar to him, and he also saw Guderian's name on the list of Kassel's teaching and research team.
Two years ago, when Gao Kui had an episode at school, he was kidnapped by a mental hospital caregiver whose clothes had a half-rotten World Tree symbol on them.
Both are called Kassel, their badges are the same, and the dean is also an assistant professor at Kassel College. Chu Zihang firmly believes that there is probably some connection between the two.
Do you want to study at the university where Dean Guderian is located?
Gao Kui, unsuspecting, readily agreed: "Of course, do you want to meet with the dean or do you want the research center's phone number?"
"It would be best if we could meet."
"Let's go in a couple of days. I'll take you to the research center this weekend, but I can't guarantee the director will be there."
"Thank you."
Chu Zihang sincerely thanked him. If he could meet with the assistant professor in Kassel, it would save him a lot of trouble.
"If you really want to thank me, how about I borrow your notes to take a look?"
You know I have problems here, and I've fallen behind in my studies due to going in and out of mental hospitals; I'm now at the bottom of my class.
Gao Kui chuckled lightly and raised his hand to gently tap his temple with his index finger.
"No problem at all."
Since Gao Kui was so loyal, Chu Zihang naturally couldn't be slacking off. He took out his study notes for each subject from his bag and solemnly handed them to him.
This is the key point; this is where the teacher said the question types are most likely to be on the test; this page contains content we just covered today…
Just as Chu Zihang was about to explain the contents of the notes to Gao Kui, he suddenly thought of something and hesitated, wanting to speak but stopping himself, afraid that excessive enthusiasm and care would touch the sensitive heart of the mental patient.
Are you explaining in such detail because you think I'm an idiot who can't understand what's above?
"I'll decide for myself."
Gao Kui took out a notebook and spread it on the table. He thought Chu Zihang was quite gentle, his inner self was completely different from his cold appearance.
Chu Zihang simply nodded, sat back down in his seat, and then secretly began to observe Gao Kui, wondering if Gao Kui shared any similar traits with him, and speculating whether Gao Kui had any special connection with Kassel...
"Aren't you going home? You shouldn't have to wait for the rain to stop."